I'm not sure whether this is common,but i really feel that sometimes i don't really understand about myself much. I can't identify the cause of me being emotionally down. I can't clearly define the source of worries that i had.
"I thought i've already uphold it to God last sunday."
Well, worries are very funny things in life. You can let it go for like few hours. The next day morning when you start to think about the unsolved things, it comes back so quickly and wake you up so effectively.
FAITH vs RESPONSIBLE
As a Christ follower, i've been experiencing the greatness of the Creator. I'm nobody and God tell me who I am. I have nothing and God review to me how much I have had. I can't see my future but God promised a good future to me. Sometimes I'll be afraid of being too dependent. Always ask from God but never work. We need to do our part to be responsible for what we want. But the more i plan the lesser i rely on God and i have lesser faith. I based on statistic and facts, my ability and qualification instead of who God is. *faint*
That's how people get stress i guess. Atleast that how i get stressed.
To distress, I go for my usual way.
Enter to the room deep inside my heart, being honest to myself, tracing back the small little things that burdened me (i get so used to the burdens until i did not discover that i have burdens on me). The stress i have is so overwhelm that I know i need God badly. I'm sooo dry like a raisin. I need the water of Life. The Word of Life that give me wisdom to carry on.
So i carry the small bible with me, thinking "the Word that God use to create the heaven and earth can surely show me my way ahead clearly".
God spoken. Again and again He speaks to me patiently whenever I'm in need. He never get frustrated. What a great father in heaven!
I feel nothing when i'm reading the Word (Bible). So i choose to worship God. I choose to praise Him even when I'm weak. I choose to see how Great God is instead of how little i am.
Psalm 8:4-6
what is man that you are mindful of him,
the son of man that you care for him?
You made him a little lower than the heavenly beings
and crowned him with glory and honor.
You made him ruler over the works of your hands;
you put everything under his feet:
Amen.
I used to have nothing in God. And not because of what i have done that God leads me this far and added to me so many things. It's because of His greatness that I have all this.
I am a so so student in class and God gave me chance to lead in my career. Give chance to advance my knowledge and skills. I do not need to be who i want to be. I don't need to be as talented as others to do what others can do. God has a purpose for me. He wants me to be who He want me to be, to do what He wants me to do. That no one else can do it.
"So do not feel that you are disable/unable/weak/low confident" God said to me.
You are perfectly who I want you to be. And you'll be more like who you will be day by day, year by year. I'll ready you. So do not look down on yourself or feel that you are nobody. Keep moving on. Do not let the worries and burdens stop you.
Matthew 6:26-27
Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life?
So don't worry. I'm with you my dear daughter. *God's comfort*
Lastly, i'll end this post with a song. The lyrics that God spoken to me last sunday morning.
In Your presence That's where I am strong
In Your presence O Lord my God
In Your presence That's where I belong
Seeking Your face Touching Your grace
In the cleft of the Rock
In Your presence O God....
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